1. I don't talk when I'm not sure about something.
2. I hate the feeling of regret. So for that reason, I avoid doing things which make me regret later in the future.
3. I do not use make up. So I don't have to spend buying cosmetics.
4. I help as much as I can.
5. I love my clothes. And I like the way I take care of my clothes.
6. I do not waste food. Atleast I try not to waste most of the times.
7. I like the fact that I'm very ambitious.
8. I have desire to learn, even if something is not too easy.
9. I accept my mistakes.
10. I stand for the people whom I like, who are or were my friends. I cant keep quite when public keep telling stories about my people. I cant be ignorant when my people are being ignored.
And.. now that's 10 things I like about myself! :)
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
How to "Deny" something!
I sit and ask myself sometimes, what would be the one thing I hate about myself and want to change? I finally got the answer now... I don't know how to "deny" to something or someone. To make it more clear... This is what happens to me most of the times....
7 PM - Friday Evening...
S: Hey, you coming to temple with us tomorrow at 6 in the evening..?
Me: Yes.. It's been long time I have been there.. Let's go tomorrow...
S: Ok
Me: Deal!
9 PM - Friday
Bans: Hey, we may go to casino tomorrow. Are you coming?
Me: At what time?
Bans: In the evening..
Me: Arround...?
Bans: Not sure yaar...Somewhere late in the evening..Not coming?
Me: No..no.. I'm coming.. But just wanted to know the time..
Bans: Ah..will tell you tomorrow yaar..
Me: Okies..
11 AM - Saturday... My phone rings...
Me: Hey DC!
DC: Hey Renjana.. would you like to come with me for dance at Flannigans this evening?
Me: ***Dilemma***
***Still no second thought now!***
Yeah.. Let's go!
DC: Ok! I will pick you arround 7.30 in the evening.. We will have dinner at Coralville and then go dance at Flanningans... Is that ok for you?
Me: Yeah..sounds good!
DC: Ok..See you then.. Bye!
Me: Bye.
2 PM - Saturday!
Now I'm in dilemma having 3 plans for the evening, thinking which one to choose! This is what happens to me always! I end up not denying to anyone and half of my time in the weekend will go in thinking and deciding and then coming out of the situation... And sometimes I think about others and choose the plan what I actually didn't want to choose!
So now that I have figured out... That's not how it works... I have to work on myself and learn how to deny when someone asks me for something! At least it is better than disappointing them at the last moment!
7 PM - Friday Evening...
S: Hey, you coming to temple with us tomorrow at 6 in the evening..?
Me: Yes.. It's been long time I have been there.. Let's go tomorrow...
S: Ok
Me: Deal!
9 PM - Friday
Bans: Hey, we may go to casino tomorrow. Are you coming?
Me: At what time?
Bans: In the evening..
Me: Arround...?
Bans: Not sure yaar...Somewhere late in the evening..Not coming?
Me: No..no.. I'm coming.. But just wanted to know the time..
Bans: Ah..will tell you tomorrow yaar..
Me: Okies..
11 AM - Saturday... My phone rings...
Me: Hey DC!
DC: Hey Renjana.. would you like to come with me for dance at Flannigans this evening?
Me: ***Dilemma***
***Still no second thought now!***
Yeah.. Let's go!
DC: Ok! I will pick you arround 7.30 in the evening.. We will have dinner at Coralville and then go dance at Flanningans... Is that ok for you?
Me: Yeah..sounds good!
DC: Ok..See you then.. Bye!
Me: Bye.
2 PM - Saturday!
Now I'm in dilemma having 3 plans for the evening, thinking which one to choose! This is what happens to me always! I end up not denying to anyone and half of my time in the weekend will go in thinking and deciding and then coming out of the situation... And sometimes I think about others and choose the plan what I actually didn't want to choose!
So now that I have figured out... That's not how it works... I have to work on myself and learn how to deny when someone asks me for something! At least it is better than disappointing them at the last moment!
Monday, January 11, 2010
Snowflake!
I looked over through my window...How wonderfully the seasons change from one to another... How beautiful is the Snow! It's amazing how all the snowflakes have the same shape..so unique...
Then I remembered those words written with the snowflake brooch....
The reminder of the first snow I have seen......!
Then I remembered those words written with the snowflake brooch....
A snowflake is a unique creation of nature. Each with it's own special qualities. Each a masterpiece. Let this snowflake be a reminder of how special & unique you are...
The reminder of the first snow I have seen......!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
I called them Brothers....
It was at 2.30 in the afternoon, once I finished my questionaire to people on to where they are traveling for the thanks giving holidays.... I saw this message in IM, "we may go anywhere for these holidays, be prepared...." I wasn't surprised! Because I knew him... He always made the last moment plans which were fun actually!!!
WE! The Large, Medium and Small! The S, M and R! It was fun always, when we 3 get together!
And like always, we made the last moment plan and after the "n" number of confusions on where to go, we decided and headed to North Dakota, with our new GPS! *** That was the one good thing. They told me to get a GPS***
I always felt safe with them. And there was something special for me in this trip. I get to drive on highways for the first time. :) The entire trip was fun. We enjoyed each moment....
It was the last day of the trip. We at Manitoe, Pike's Peak. After our trip to the mountain in Cog Rail, we were all tired and we decided to take enough rest before we start driving back.... It was my bad I started behaving cranky to them from 5 in the evening to take me to see arround that place. They were tired....They wanted to rest....They tried convincing me... I started behaving like a kid....
The scene changed. They were mad at me. Even though, they took me out! S was feeling bad.. He gave me and M, a worry angel, he bought it from a shop in that town! *** I believe in that! A guardian angel to take care of you ***
Then, we had our great meal of that day.. a wonderful dinner at a Chinese restaurant there.... We were the only guys dining there at that time! It was nice and peaceful.... We started our drive back at 10.30 PM.... I was all the way sleeping until 2.30 or 3.00 AM, when they interchanged the driving....
We stoped at a Pitstop at 8.30 in the morning. Then I started driving after the way too much sleep in the car! I'm bad at driving... I have problem in seeing the blind spot and changing lanes...I know all these....But still I want to drive.... M was navigating me.... He had to yell at me manytimes... For yelling at me, I fought with him like I fight with my own brother (if I had one!)..... After all these, we reached back at arround 2'O clock in the afternoon.... I felt good that we reached back....I was tired.... The rest of that Sunday went without doing anything except resting at home!
The next week we 3 met at work...the whole went without anything special... We had one lunch together on Friday! And that was it!
I look back now... I'm trying to figure out what went wrong..... When I see both of them, and say "hi", I cry inside for the reason that we are not the same as before! What happened to that most acclaimed friendship?
3 weeks later our thanks giving trip, now when I write this... I know one thing that we are no more the same.... Each time I see you both, I wish and think, will things change? Will we go to our usual spots again together? Will we three stop for few minutes and crack jokes together again?............. Then I asked myself....was that just a seasonal friendship for you or for me? I don't get an answer for all these..... But I know, I cherish all the moments shared with you guys! The faded memories..............
With all smiles,
All the best!
WE! The Large, Medium and Small! The S, M and R! It was fun always, when we 3 get together!
And like always, we made the last moment plan and after the "n" number of confusions on where to go, we decided and headed to North Dakota, with our new GPS! *** That was the one good thing. They told me to get a GPS***
I always felt safe with them. And there was something special for me in this trip. I get to drive on highways for the first time. :) The entire trip was fun. We enjoyed each moment....
It was the last day of the trip. We at Manitoe, Pike's Peak. After our trip to the mountain in Cog Rail, we were all tired and we decided to take enough rest before we start driving back.... It was my bad I started behaving cranky to them from 5 in the evening to take me to see arround that place. They were tired....They wanted to rest....They tried convincing me... I started behaving like a kid....
The scene changed. They were mad at me. Even though, they took me out! S was feeling bad.. He gave me and M, a worry angel, he bought it from a shop in that town! *** I believe in that! A guardian angel to take care of you ***
Then, we had our great meal of that day.. a wonderful dinner at a Chinese restaurant there.... We were the only guys dining there at that time! It was nice and peaceful.... We started our drive back at 10.30 PM.... I was all the way sleeping until 2.30 or 3.00 AM, when they interchanged the driving....
We stoped at a Pitstop at 8.30 in the morning. Then I started driving after the way too much sleep in the car! I'm bad at driving... I have problem in seeing the blind spot and changing lanes...I know all these....But still I want to drive.... M was navigating me.... He had to yell at me manytimes... For yelling at me, I fought with him like I fight with my own brother (if I had one!)..... After all these, we reached back at arround 2'O clock in the afternoon.... I felt good that we reached back....I was tired.... The rest of that Sunday went without doing anything except resting at home!
The next week we 3 met at work...the whole went without anything special... We had one lunch together on Friday! And that was it!
I look back now... I'm trying to figure out what went wrong..... When I see both of them, and say "hi", I cry inside for the reason that we are not the same as before! What happened to that most acclaimed friendship?
3 weeks later our thanks giving trip, now when I write this... I know one thing that we are no more the same.... Each time I see you both, I wish and think, will things change? Will we go to our usual spots again together? Will we three stop for few minutes and crack jokes together again?............. Then I asked myself....was that just a seasonal friendship for you or for me? I don't get an answer for all these..... But I know, I cherish all the moments shared with you guys! The faded memories..............
All the best!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Merry Christmas!
So the second day before my "so expected" Christmas vacation started by missing my morning meeting at 7.15.... I opened up my eyes, a little under the wheather in the cozy sleep, and checked my mobile for time and it showed 7:09 :O I tried not believing my eyes... I jumped out of the comforter...opened my laptop... tried to do remote login and cancel the meeting... and not sure what was going wrong, all my efforts in cancelling the 7.15 meeting was in vain......
Then I decided myself to take my time and come peacefully for the 8'O clock meeting.... When I was cleaning my car out of snow, I was praying somewhere inside my mind not to be screwed by anyone for missing the "7.15" meeting!!!
As I opened my email, I saw Nathan's [**My boss**] "understanding" email sent to my team... He was in a conclusion that I was burried under the heavy snow last night! But that helped!! :)
As the day move on....
9.50 am [CST]
I made 2 calls..... He didn't answer! "where should be Rohit at this time???" I was surprised.
[***** Rohit is my friend who is in Bangalore. He is supposed to leave to Jammu today to his hometown for vacation*****]
11.05 am..... there my phone rings..... "How many times I told him not to give long rings!"
Me: Hello!
Rohit: Bolo!
Me: Kahan dhe?
Rohit: Bike chala raha tha...
Me: Acha! bolo.. Kab ka flight hain?
Rohit: You should call me at 3.30 CST so that I can catch the volvo to airport. Don't miss!
Me: Ok baba! I will call you..
Rohit: Dont call me "Baba". I'm not Baba!
Me: lol
Rohit: lol
"That's how we are! We end up laughing all the time! And that's the best thing I like about our friendship!"......
As I see now people stopping at my desk saying "Happy Christmas!" to me..... I decided to start writing on my blog...wishing all my people a very "Happy Chrismas!"... For everyone who are with me now.. for those who are not with me now.... After those four "loving but betrayed and extremely hurt" years of my life, which I try to forget!...... I wish myself too..... A merry Christmas and a wonderful New year!
I will burn candles for you all, this Christmas!
Cheers!
Then I decided myself to take my time and come peacefully for the 8'O clock meeting.... When I was cleaning my car out of snow, I was praying somewhere inside my mind not to be screwed by anyone for missing the "7.15" meeting!!!
As I opened my email, I saw Nathan's [**My boss**] "understanding" email sent to my team... He was in a conclusion that I was burried under the heavy snow last night! But that helped!! :)
As the day move on....
9.50 am [CST]
I made 2 calls..... He didn't answer! "where should be Rohit at this time???" I was surprised.
[***** Rohit is my friend who is in Bangalore. He is supposed to leave to Jammu today to his hometown for vacation*****]
11.05 am..... there my phone rings..... "How many times I told him not to give long rings!"
Me: Hello!
Rohit: Bolo!
Me: Kahan dhe?
Rohit: Bike chala raha tha...
Me: Acha! bolo.. Kab ka flight hain?
Rohit: You should call me at 3.30 CST so that I can catch the volvo to airport. Don't miss!
Me: Ok baba! I will call you..
Rohit: Dont call me "Baba". I'm not Baba!
Me: lol
Rohit: lol
"That's how we are! We end up laughing all the time! And that's the best thing I like about our friendship!"......
As I see now people stopping at my desk saying "Happy Christmas!" to me..... I decided to start writing on my blog...wishing all my people a very "Happy Chrismas!"... For everyone who are with me now.. for those who are not with me now.... After those four "loving but betrayed and extremely hurt" years of my life, which I try to forget!...... I wish myself too..... A merry Christmas and a wonderful New year!
I will burn candles for you all, this Christmas!
Cheers!
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